Ma LIfe

2004-10-30T13:51:00.000-04:00

it's goOSEYY NIGHTttt !!! Imma maybe go to paterson tonight catch a bus there from tha mall, goin wit bivy n mable. hopefully we'll go, i dunno

bivy got to bring her water gun n fill it up wit a mixture of things, hahaha....n bring some egggsss, if i take some eggs , ma mom be like, where all tha eggs go, haha.,..anyway, if we dont go to paterson tonight , we might jus end up goin round our hood, wit monica, n hasish n mayb some otha pple...so that could be good too...but hopefully no police will catch us cause they be patrolin this town like crazzy......so we'll see wat happens

eitha way, is GONNA BE GOODDD!!

Peace

2004-10-22T15:34:00.000-04:00

Heyy, im glad this shits private...haha....nobody knows bout this, n if they do happen to read it, it prolly ends up bein some random stranger...

Today was aright, i ran tha fuckin milee in gym, that mo fucker succkkeed, i was so fuckin red when i was done wit it in 10 min...even. I was soo tired, n walkin like i was drunk., it was mad funny though, n then i almost ran into a wall cause i was mad dizzy n hadnt eaten nuttin.

But later, ma friend at lunch, gave me this ICE COLD WATER BOTTLEE!!! Thank you soo much, that shit saved me , haha. fOR REAL, it was damn good. Then at lunch, i had to make a dumbass moleeee, ughh i forgot bout it, so i went crazzy, n was stickin two pieces of paper together on one side it had a pic of a mole that id printed from tha library, then i put some cotton thing that i found from some teacher, n stapeled it togetha, n it look like a molee....haha, but i ttuned out good, at least i didnt get a 0.

Today, in photoghraphy, Alejandra was soo sad, i felt bad u know, cause i couldnt help her out, she such a REAL person, wat i mean, she genuine, n she try to help people, but yet God gotta make her life soo hard n dificcult, why do go od people got is so hard it jus aint fair...n tha really evil peeople that are hypcrites jus dont die... I asked her wat was wrong, but she was jus like, reg family probs ... so i couldnt really help her, tha only thing i could do was give her a hug...she so nice, its unbelieveable.. So i then went wit her so she could talk to tha spanish teacher, damn she so nice too, n gave her some advice cuz she already knew wat was goin on...so yea. that helped her out a lot cause she seemed to feel betta, so i m glad bout that, imma pray for her, so things get better, n hopefully god will listen to ma prayers. ..

Wat elsee......OhhO, i was talkin to Diego yesterday, n i thought i really had suttin goin wti that nigga, but damn i was wrong, we was jus talkin last night, n he was like yea, i had sex 3 days ago, n i was like oh aright, n hes like it meant nuttin ,n i wa like taht dont matta, i dont really care. I didn't really care..i think, maybe thas jus wat i wanna think. I dunno, but he was like yea, i wanna hook up wit u n stuff, but not ready for a realtionship again, but maybe if you know i get to know u more, n things goo good , than maybe suttin more would happen than jus casual sex... I aint gonna disrespect ma self, by jus havin fuckin casual seex , that shit dont exist for me...i respect ma self, if ive been wit u long enough, n i truly feel we both got tha same feelins of love, then you know, i would give ma all to you, i mean all...cause at that point i mean, u deserve it. but i jus aint gonna have some sex wit ssome nigga, n th em him goin to anotha girl 3 days lata, like im some hoe....NO THAT SHIT DONT FLY wit me, yea, we could jus be friends n chill n everythin, but nuttin beyond that if he dont want a realtionship... he was supposed to come to tha party wit me, but i know if i ask monica if i could bring him, she gonna say no cause she jus want her close friends there, i understand her. . but i think imma ha ve to go a lil latea, cause i gotta go to church b4, i havent gone in a while, so i need to go, cause i dont gto o n sunday, cause we dont got time on sunday. so im goin there, then her partyy..but not many pple gonna be goin from our schoool , specially tha otha hispanic people, so its gonna be a party wit mostly jus them indian people, that i dont know at all cept 2..lol. but thas nuttin, so yea, i dunno wat imma do, there if i do goo, i wanna go cause its ma friends b-day, n her party, n imma jus have fun,lol...

hopefully all tha pple come that said they was goin...so yea.

Aright, thas all for now, cause am mad tiredd, n got a headache, those damn aspirins dont work fOR SHITT. for real, dont use em, they dont work, waste of ma money i dont gott....anyway, imma sleep for while then go out tontight, lol... hopefully diego dont call me, cause i still gotta think bout wat imma do bout him..lol

Peace

2004-10-20T23:15:00.000-04:00

Hey, was good? This is ma first post herree... i got a xanga too, but i really cant post any shit on there u know cause too many people be up in tha xangas n readin it, pple from ma school, n i cant write in t here a lot of personal shit cause too many damn nosey pple be readin it, n i know caue i got this tracker thing that tells him who sees iot everyday...so yea, now, imma be writin in this shit a lot, hopefully...

lets see, on sunday, imma be gettin ma permit!! holla , this girll gonna be drivinnnnn , at least wit someone 18 or olda in tha car, haha, but at least i can drive, evn though i ha ve , illegally, haha.

n i miss ma baby, manuel, who moved to COLOMBIA, why that nigga had to leave mee, im yearnin for him soo much, even wit all tha phone calls, shit aint tha same, cause i cant see him... u know ...anyway , imma go in december to visit him hopefully if ma parents are gonna let me go...so that should be fun n weird at tha same damn time, cause we havent seen each otha in a minute.

but i mean, i know we aint gonna have a relationship no more, cause we cant have one that far apart, is impossible, it aint realistic, cause we both got needs, n cant fullfil em bein miles n miles n a continent awayyy. damn why does life gotta be unfair like dis...i was wit that nigga for a yr....he gave me all of him, n i gave him all of me....we can truly say we LOVED each otha, he was tha first one that i could say i LOVED, tha otha ones was jus puuppy love, aint nuttin seriouus, but wit him it was, it was everythin, n i miss that everythin, cause now t her es an empty hole he left in ma heart...n i dunno wat to do bout it anymore....

well, imma stop this depressin entry, cause i aint like these mad depressin entries, i like to live happy cause u aint neva knoww wat could happen tomm oroww, i might not wake up tommorow, who knows..lol

PARTY at ma Mo's on saturdayyy, holla, that shit gonna be wassup!

Peace

PS++ imma leave u wit a neww pic of me i took wit ma webcam